Cheesy admission.

I'm too restless to go study for AP.

I feel nervous. Nothing is sure around this time.

I don't want this to end, ever. It's scary, I never wanted anything like this to last forever. But I do. I really do.

It might sound weird and corny to others, considering our history. But whatever.

Although there is this comforting fact that we will just go back to each other (like how many times), I don't want to go through that. Again. We've wasted so much time.

We've been through hell and back and I don't want things to just end up like everything else.

I don't want anything to end.

I don't want to stop the hugs that we give to each other. The little (petty) fights that we get in to. The smiles on our faces whenever we complete our 'secret handshake'. The times wherein you tease me that I'm fat. The momentary jealousies each one experiences and the inevitable urge to be an arsonist after that. The inside jokes that we share that no one will ever understand. The way that we are always in sync with each other. The times when you get annoyed when I mimic whatever you say. Moments when I call you cute and the when you (seldom) tell me that I'm pretty. I don't want to stop kissing you from head to toe. I don't ever want to stop being inlove with you.

I don't want it to last only until summer too.

We will last forever. Forever and a day.



(UGH. ANG CHEESY. But you know, hindi related sa keso. Lolz. Joke. :*)

Just because she's willing to die.

If you were to choose between killing a healthy person or a malnourished one which would you choose? For blogging purposes, let's say both of them are females.

I think the automatic answer for the majority will be killing the healthy one. I bet their reason/s would prolly go like this:

1. The healthy person already experienced life as a normal person, and the malnourished one hasn't, so it's a shame if the malnourished one dies.
2. If you kill the healthy person, it will not cause an uproar as much as killing the malnourished one.

What if the healthy person is actually willing to die to save the other? Is that reason enough to kill her?

I think not.

As for the healthy person, is it a sensible decision to give up on life just like that when you could still have so much more?

It's not reasonable to kill someone just because you know that that someone is willing to die for you. Kahit na alam mo na kaya niya tiisin yung sakit, 'di pa rin siya rason.



Tangina lang.
Tralalala. Vent! :D

Voltes V cannot solve everything.

It's weird. When we were young and running around in diapers we didn't give a damn who we talk to, who we make friends with or with whom we share our food. There was just this 'I don't give a fuck who you are, just as long as you don't steal my toys' attitude when we're young; and as time passes we lose that kind of thinking. We grow cautious to the point that saying the friendliest 'Hi!' is so hard.

We visited our relatives in Las Pinas last month. I'm not really familiar with them, but I do recognize them from the old photo albums of my parents' wedding and my first birthday. When my dad mentioned that I used to play with my second cousins loads of times when I was young, it was kind of hard to imagine. I wanted to be friends with them again but it's not as easy back in the day when all I have to say is ‘Hey, can I borrow your Voltes V robot?’.

I wish I was child again. All these complicated things that goes with adulthood is kind of tiring.

First (of) Summer.

(I AM SO INFINITELY STUPID. I EDITED THIS POST BUT, BECAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY, I ACCIDENTALLY HIT DREADED DELETE BUTTON. I HATE THAT CURSED BUTTON. THANK GOD I ACTUALLY HAVE ENOUGH SENSE TO SAVE MY POSTS IN NOTEPAD FIRST.)

Hm, this summer went by awfully fast. I surmise that it's because of my CAT training back in mid-April and my review late this May. I must admit, it was quite nice to not sit around my ass all day all summer. I've been doing that for the past, oh I don't know, fifteen summers, and boy, am I glad that my sixteenth isn't such a blah.

My CAT training was fun. I got to really know my fellow student leaders (I know them, of course, 'cause there are only, like, a hundred fifty people in our batch, so not knowing them is quite impossible, but I reallyrly got to know them. Yeah. I'm ranting now.) and we also learned just how hard and important our job really is. Wow, I can't believe I just typed that down. Who would've thunk it, that me, Reginne Camarse, rulebreaker extraordinaire, would actually aspire to be an (responsible) officer? Hee.

To our extreme dismay (and suspense), our positions still wasn't announced by the end of last month contrary to what I've said in my very first post here.

Anyhoo, my review was ... not as eventful as I thought it would be. Even though there were only 30 or so students in our class, there was just this air or awkwardness that didn't really disappear for a month. Idk why. Only my friend's cousin, who is now also my friend, Mela, was able to break the tension sometimes. Oh, and yeah, I also learned a lot. Back in my sophomore year, I never ever thought I'd understand Mitosis and Meiosis and all that crap. Thank God.

I've also discovered the wonder that is Facebook. (Click on the picture to enlarge it. It's a screencap of my Facebook profile.) I just decided to take a look at it and see if it's another lame networking site like Hi5, Tagged, etc. I was so wrong. Facebook, as it turns out, is actually kajillion times better than Friendster and probably gazillion times better than Multiply. (Although I don't really know, 'cause Facebook and Multiply's purposes are a bit different.) (I already said this line to my friend Thea, but I like it so much, I've decided to repeat myself. Oh and, kajillion is bigger than gazillion, btw.)

Let me list down the reason why it's so cool.

- The applications it offers are way cooler than Friendster's. It has games (which are so not lame, might I add) like Word Challenge, Tower Bloxx, Bubble Town, Bubble Words, Maffia, Who Has The Biggest Brain, Vampires, Werewolves, and lots more. What's even better, is that it compares your score to your friends. It's very helpful especially if you're aiming for bragging rights.

(Personally, I love Word Challenge. I think I've reached the highest level, which is Poet, 'cause my score is 17,000+, and the highest among my friends scored 30,000+, and she's STILL a Poet. So yeah. Who Has The Biggest Brain is also loads of fun. I now have an Alien brain. (Share!) Right now, I'm a cross between frustrated and addicted (fruddicted?) on Tower Bloxx. Just saying.)

- The groups in Facebook as hilarious. There was this one group I joined, I Hate When Kids Suck At Putting Together The Shrine of the Silver Monkey (Yeah, 90's Nickelodeon reference right there, if you haven't noticed), and also an I'm Tired Of People Fucking Up My Name group.

- The Bumper Sticker application is also loads of fun.

- Oh, and Mesmo TV's fun as well! I love answering trivia questions about my favorite shows! Not just the 'What is the name of the main character in ______?' kind of crap but reallyrly hard questions that only a keen eye can notice.

- The Visual Bookself makes me want to read my Sweet Valley books again.

Hm, right now, that's what's got me hooked on Facebook, but I'm sure it offers lots more that what I've listed.

So yeah, let's boycott Friendster. It sucks anyways.
(I am still going to use aforementioned suckish Friendster 'cause I love my friends THIS much, although some of 'em are too lazy to register in Facebook.)

(You also might notice that I like using (parentheses). Yeah. I'm weird that way.

Hand-me-down Phones

My Dad bought himself a new cellphone. I don't rly know what the name is 'cause I'm no technophile. All I know is that it uses one of those pen thingees and that you use to touch the screen or whatever. Since that phone can hold two SIM cards, he'll be giving away (I make it sound like he's a host or whatever,) his two cellphones.

He made me choose between (again, I don't know all the names of the phones) the one with the camera or the one with the radio. I chose the one with the radio. I figured that I can always borrow the digicam, anyways.

Hm, to be honest, I was never addicted to texting. Granted, I begged my parents for a phone back when I was in fifth or sixth grade but I never really got to the phase where in I would be so distracted by my phone that it'd be confiscated. And yes, I sometimes avail of the Unlitxt promo of Globe but I was never 'addicted'.

I know some (no, actually, A LOT of)people who socialize more in texting compared in real life. Weird. Maybe they find it easier than 'real life' because you don't rly have to worry about what you're going to say through text 'cause you can edit them as much as you like. You can analyze your text and if it can be perceived in some other way you want it to be perceived, you can edit it out. Maybe that's why people seem more friendly through text.

So if someone says that that person is friendly/nice/whatever because 'naka-text ko siya eh,' I don't buy it. Idk. I guess I have to know them for real to believe it.

Weird thing though. I don't find any trouble when I'm making friends in cyberspace. Haha!

Well, through text or in cyberspace, I have this excellent radar on who's being pretentious and who's the WYSIWYG type of person. So I tend to stay away from those I don't rly like to be chummy with.